Sunshine

I had to take Morris to the vet last week because he had a sudden, big lump on his neck. It felt like filled with body fluids. After punctuating, my vet sadly felt something and referred me to a vet clinic. Under the microscope, they spotted suspicious cells in the wound fluid. 

Yesterday he got a CT under anesthesia, and it's indeed a massive mass in his neck. I am sorry to disappoint people, don’t know when the mods get continued, I don't feel like being creative. I don't feel much like anything tbh. He got a biopsy yesterday, too, and now I wait if it’s malign or benign. If he goes palliative or if surgery is an option.  

Update 30th August:

It's a Fibrosarcoma, which is a malignant cancer. Morris is officially palliative. Monday removal of the stitches and an estimate of lifespan and discussing the palliative care plan. 

My heart is broken.

You kiss them goodnight every day, tell them how much you love them, they lay their tiny heads into the palm of your hand and love you.
Unshakeable love for years and years.
You lay your soul before them and they join without hesitation.
They rest in the gaps of your soul and bath in your sunlight. Light you thought you've lost.
Light you can't see.
Light you aren't aware of.
And slowly, piece by piece, the dull, dark space of your soul has shine again.
And together you bath in your shared sunshine.
The sunshine of your love.
Nothing but love.


Rest well Morris, you are loved, you are missed, and you are cherished — forever.